The internal family members of your psyche are quite familiar to me. Mine have me dancing in chaotic circles so often, and they undermine my sense of agency, often stealing a sense of clear direction. Stops and starts, promising visions followed by disappointment.
It's too easy to identify excessively with this dynamic, as powerful and long-standing as it's been. I can carve out areas of "achievement", but it's usually in the work realm, where I'm committed to proving my value (and enjoying the thrill of creative activity with colleagues.) What might I learn from those experiences that translate into the personal goals I set for myself. (The "accountability partner"/coach suggestion you make is solid, David.)
I'm beginning to do more work "sharpening the saw" of my soul, tending these internal dynamics in a way that I pray is more than just sanctified distractions. Freeing up time for concentrated work is needed, it seems to me, and I hope the holiday break affords such an opportunity, and that I seize it with curiosity and enthusiasm. It helps to see others, like you, doing this work intentionally and reporting on the journey, identifying the gains in elevation. Thank you for the open-hearted encouragement.
I, too, am good at my job and can achieve many goals. My colleagues are shocked when I tell them (on a rare occasion) I was late with a project or goal, as I've been known to be early or on time. So, regarding my work, I am clear about my goals and intentions. Perhaps because it's a job with clear directions, expectations, and job description; besides, I'll be celebrating my 15th work anniversary at the beginning of January. So, I've done my job for quite a while.
However, I see things differently when it comes to my self-directed and self-initiated projects. My time outside work is much more precious, and I have too many possible directions I could go. There seems to be too much freedom to be successful or fail, and that's what my parts are up against. As I write this, I realize I have difficulty taking personal responsibility for my successes and failures- or at least parts of me don't want to do so.
Yet, I know that to grow and build anything meaningful, we all need to take risks.
It takes courage to go within ourselves and do the necessary internal work with our parts to be Self-directed and not parts-led.
I hope that by sharing my story, I can inspire others to do their internal work.
Blessings to you, and I wish you and yours happy holidays and a Happy New Year!
The internal family members of your psyche are quite familiar to me. Mine have me dancing in chaotic circles so often, and they undermine my sense of agency, often stealing a sense of clear direction. Stops and starts, promising visions followed by disappointment.
It's too easy to identify excessively with this dynamic, as powerful and long-standing as it's been. I can carve out areas of "achievement", but it's usually in the work realm, where I'm committed to proving my value (and enjoying the thrill of creative activity with colleagues.) What might I learn from those experiences that translate into the personal goals I set for myself. (The "accountability partner"/coach suggestion you make is solid, David.)
I'm beginning to do more work "sharpening the saw" of my soul, tending these internal dynamics in a way that I pray is more than just sanctified distractions. Freeing up time for concentrated work is needed, it seems to me, and I hope the holiday break affords such an opportunity, and that I seize it with curiosity and enthusiasm. It helps to see others, like you, doing this work intentionally and reporting on the journey, identifying the gains in elevation. Thank you for the open-hearted encouragement.
Thank you, Tim. I appreciate your comment.
I, too, am good at my job and can achieve many goals. My colleagues are shocked when I tell them (on a rare occasion) I was late with a project or goal, as I've been known to be early or on time. So, regarding my work, I am clear about my goals and intentions. Perhaps because it's a job with clear directions, expectations, and job description; besides, I'll be celebrating my 15th work anniversary at the beginning of January. So, I've done my job for quite a while.
However, I see things differently when it comes to my self-directed and self-initiated projects. My time outside work is much more precious, and I have too many possible directions I could go. There seems to be too much freedom to be successful or fail, and that's what my parts are up against. As I write this, I realize I have difficulty taking personal responsibility for my successes and failures- or at least parts of me don't want to do so.
Yet, I know that to grow and build anything meaningful, we all need to take risks.
It takes courage to go within ourselves and do the necessary internal work with our parts to be Self-directed and not parts-led.
I hope that by sharing my story, I can inspire others to do their internal work.
Blessings to you, and I wish you and yours happy holidays and a Happy New Year!